Post by HSW on Jun 4, 2005 18:27:22 GMT -5
Months ago I bought a ticket to the current Tori concert, not a bad seat either. But as the date approached I could see...way off in the distance...an inkling that I may just not be able to make it.
And so yesterday rolled around, Tori was playing and I had a ticket, but I'd just worked a week where I'd only gotten about 8 hours sleep in TOTAL and I have to work throughout the weekend as well...so the choice was: Sleep or Tori, Sleep or Tori, Sleep or....
The show was supposed to start at 7:30 and I was lying on my appartment floor at 7:00 with the ticket in my hand wondering whether I should pop some caffeine pills just to get there, bear in mind the reason I was lying down was that I was almost unconscious from lack of sleep.
So there it is, in almost fifteen years of being a Toriphile for the first time I had to make a very very very difficult decision to turn my back on one of my idols in order to recoup some of my sanity and strength for the upcoming days ahead. I know it's irrational but deep down I feel like I've been complicit in some sort of betrayal of Ms Amos. I'm enough of a fan to know that if I met her and explained the situation she'd advise me to get some rest instead of going to some transitory concert where the appreciation would've been severely dulled by the rapid shut down of mental process...but still...
In the end I've gained about nine hours sleep and a large chunk of rational thought (which still isn't nearly enough), but I'm still not altogether sure it was worth missing her concert
Forgive me Tori, for I feel I've sinned :cry:
And so yesterday rolled around, Tori was playing and I had a ticket, but I'd just worked a week where I'd only gotten about 8 hours sleep in TOTAL and I have to work throughout the weekend as well...so the choice was: Sleep or Tori, Sleep or Tori, Sleep or....
The show was supposed to start at 7:30 and I was lying on my appartment floor at 7:00 with the ticket in my hand wondering whether I should pop some caffeine pills just to get there, bear in mind the reason I was lying down was that I was almost unconscious from lack of sleep.
So there it is, in almost fifteen years of being a Toriphile for the first time I had to make a very very very difficult decision to turn my back on one of my idols in order to recoup some of my sanity and strength for the upcoming days ahead. I know it's irrational but deep down I feel like I've been complicit in some sort of betrayal of Ms Amos. I'm enough of a fan to know that if I met her and explained the situation she'd advise me to get some rest instead of going to some transitory concert where the appreciation would've been severely dulled by the rapid shut down of mental process...but still...
In the end I've gained about nine hours sleep and a large chunk of rational thought (which still isn't nearly enough), but I'm still not altogether sure it was worth missing her concert
Forgive me Tori, for I feel I've sinned :cry:
